DRooooooooooooL!!/ BACK TO SCHOOL!!

HOTTIE MAJOR!!!!!

I swear after I graduate from highschool, I am going to Finnland!!! Even if it takes me forever, I will get there! OH, MY, GOSH!!! Three more years and I'm going to go to Finnland. YAY ME!

Oh yeah, I got my hair done for school and it looks awsome! I want to get my nose peirced, but no one in town will do it until I'm 16. What a rip. I never thought I would say this, but I can't wait to get back to school! The freshmen had their first day today. I can already tell this year is goin to be fun. I know a lot of the new freshmen and don't like hardly any of them. Most of them are cocky and have the snotty, "I'm better than you" attitude. I'm sure that by the end of the second week of school, that 'tude will be changed to the, "someone get me out of this locker, it stinks in here" kind of 'tude. At least one frosh is going to push the wrong button of one of my friends or me and their butt will meet our shoes, I'm pretty sure of that, and I think I know which one it is too. In the group of people I hand out with there is only a few rules.

1. You mess with one of us and you mess with the rest of us.

2. Don't think you can play us to go against each other, 'cuz we don't

go down that way.

3. Don't start beef with the other groups unless you have good reasons

'cuz we don't want to deal with the drama.

Speaking of going back to school, I just want to say that I am very proud of my mom for going back. I am TOTALY STOKED that she is going back. She deserves to go back to school after everything she has gone through, both good and bad. I love you mom and want you to know that I will be here for you every step of way, even through Algebra.

DRAMA MAJOR!

Wow! I never thought there could be so much drama in one place! Over the past week there has been so much of it that it has made me go crazy! First two of my friends got into a fight with each other and of course I got drug right into the middle of the whole thing! They started fighting because one of my friends (Jessica) wanted my best friend (Steffany) to break up with her boyfriend (Mike). Personaly, I think Jessica wanted Mike all to herself because every time one of our other friends gets a boyfriend, she thinks the guys are only going out with them just to get to Jessica! STUPID! When we are all in a big group and Steffany is there, Jessica will say she hates mike, but she has told me bfore she really does like him! now that is what I call drama. The other drama is that today I got this letter from my friend Mitchell, who loves to state his oppinion, and most of the time makes pretty good points. The letter was talking about the possibilities of a school shooting! Yeah, I know! Pretty much the whole student body had a letter, but when the princpal heard about what was going on all the letters had to be given to teachers, and if a student was to be caught with one they would get into some serious trouble. Thankfully, I managed to get one past a ton of teachers and all the prepps who would love to get me in trouble. HA HA! I WIN! I really hope something is going to be done about the situation that occurs in this letter.

Possibilities of a School Shooting here in Buhler

Is there a possibility of a scholl shooting at Buhler? I think there is. Bullying in the terms of kids havind there lunch money stolen is of course not common here. Nevertheless, there is a major problem of harassment at Buhler High. While I have been a student at Buhler, I have been picked on and harassed a lot. Although most of you say this doesn't happen here, it does. You must reallize that even though it may be a joke to you. That kid has probably heard comments like that for a while, and for him/her it is no laughing matter. These simple jokes and teases build up and eventually can lead to a mental break down or worse. I know because it happened to me. Although I did not take it out in the form of a school shooting, I was harassed everyday for almost two years. Until finally I just got into a fight with the kid, which is what it took for the school adminstration to finally consront this problem.
Harassment may be the root of these kids' problems but there are many factors that it takes to cause this to build into the idea of a school shooting. One main factor is with teacher discrimination. While teachers do not do it meaningfully (I hope) they do pick favorites who can slide with some things others can't. One of the most obvious and consistent forms of this is athletes and coaches. A football coach wouldn't flunk his all state quarterback, and most coaches won't even yell at the kids that are in there sport. It has gone so far that a teacher has watched me get punched in the back by one of his athletes and didn't even say a word. Then when a student would go off to the office to complain about this the principal tells them to talk to the tearcher. Which when a teacher already doesn't like you and likes th eother kid, it doesn't get any better. Not to mention that i have had to sit in a room with the same kids completely unsupervised for up to 15 minutes with these kids harassing me. Mr, Bergmann has even made it a habit not to even show up to his class he is supposed to be supervising until 10-15 minutes after the bell rings. When the teacher won't help the student being harassed and the administration won't make the teacher help or even let you transfer out of the class it can lead to major problems.
Another is lack of ability to contact the administration. When a student being harassed can't even get help from the teachers, the next step would be to talk to the administration, but when you go to the office 9 different timesin one day and never can you find one of the principals, what are you supposed to do? Not to mention there is is no one watching the halls for harassment, and if there is they always stand in one spot. If they are the only one who watches the students will just stop before they reach the sight of the administration. Not to mention they will hardly do a thing when you complain about it. They might reprimand the student but that only worsens the harassment. These students need your help.
I ask you what can a student do? When a teacher doesn't like you. When the administration doesn't care. Where are you supposed to turn? Most of you would say to their parents. Well guess what you parents that may be readin this, some parents are too apathetis to bother. Some would say well just toughen up. Very few would actualy call the school, and that is the sad truth. I know all these things from my own experiences at Buhler.

Now I pose to you this final question. What are we going to do about this? Are we going to sand idealy by while not only our own lives or the lives of your children are in danger? Are we going to wait until God forbid the worst does happen? I write this as a warning to every student and parent iut there. We must let the adminstration know this will not be tolerated. Speak up now before someone dies. Who know it may be someone you know.





Just a reminder to you guys that I did not write this letter. One of my own friends wrote it in warning that things can go, and will go wrong if something is not done about the teasing and harassment at my school, or any school for that matter.

HEY PEEPS! HOW GOES IT?!

I don't know what to put on this thing, so I guess I'm just gonna put some of my poetry on it. First I gotta say thanks to my mom for letting me have a blog, so.... "THANKS MOM!!!!!! I LOVE YOU!!" I know some of this poetry is kinda sad, but don't worry 'cuz I'm not that depressed any more.

PAIN

My heart is bleeding and this pain will not pass. It's not receading, my body is going numb. A bad trip child. Go away. I just want to be thrown away. I made a mess, I am a mess. I can't control my feelings. I don't want to talk to the counselor or the doctor to tell them how I feel, and i know it gets worse every day. Life's been sucked out of me. Just leave me to crumble alone. I have no one to talk to, but that's ok, who would want to talk to me ant way? I can't handle the pressure you put on me, I AM about to break! People at school say I'm crazy, I ignore them, but the pain just stays and stores away, ripping out my heart and soul because i can't say anything about it. Some people apologize, but my pain won't go away. You can't do anything about it now, because my life is already gone and the damage has been done. You say my life is good, but look at what I've become.

THE PAIN YOU CAUSED

I hpoe yo know the pain you caused by leaving me out in the cold. My heart feels numb and my mind is tingly, but the part that hurts the most is me soul. You beat me when I was younger, and that I shall never forget! I hope one day you'll realize and be so full of regret. All the things you did to me, I hope you want to hurl! Did I do something wrong, or is it just because i'm a girl?

DEAD ROSES

Each rose represents a life, and each time one dies, another life was wasted, but each time one blooms, another life has just begun.

TIME IN TIME

Time in time and time again, this power overcomes me, but how do I know this power over comes me, time and time again.

FEELINGS

My hopes are shattered, and my dreams are faded. What was left of my soul is gone. The pain is still here, and still it creeps so silently. I can't show you how i feel inside, for fear of being left in the cold. After so many years, I've learned to keep my feelings inside, trapped like the stars in the sky. I know it's time to let my feelings out. I don't know what you feel for me, but I'll tell you what I feel for you.

MY LOVE FOR YOU

My love for you is everlasting, it won't ever fade away. My love for you is longing, I long for you to stay. Stay and say you love me and I'll say "I love you too!"

QUESTIONS

Why does life have to be so hard? Why do so many things go wrong? Why can't anyone fix me? Why am I who I am? Why can't my life be better? Why are so many people dying every day? Why do our beliefs matter? Why is it so hard to make friends? Why are there all these questions? Why are there no answers?

STRANGE

It's strange how life can be scarry, but life can be even scarrier.